trying not to be a prick

why i write in lower case

i'm not a hipster - a little indie, yeah - but i'm not trying to be cool with the aesthetics of my blog.

so that's how my post was going to start out. then i remembered i'm trying to be authentic and open with my writing, with what i share.

yeah, i do think writing in lower case is cool. i do think my blog is looking cool so far. and, yes, i want it to be cool as shit forever.

and i don't think there's anything wrong with that if the motives and the execution are done for the right reasons. with me, i hope that's the case.

maybe that’s because i've been tense my whole life - the kind of tense 99% of people wouldn't understand. the kind of tense that doesn't even allow you to know you're tense.

i was hospitalized a few years ago and my anxiety was so high i had barely slept in a week - i wouldn't even get into the hospital bed. they gave me 10mg of diazepam and my world changed.

the baseline of my life back then was a cat on a hot tin roof. i hadn't known it was possible to feel so relaxed.

my point is, i write in lower case and keep my blog minimalist and cool because it helps me relax - a paradox, i'm sure, but it works for me.

i spend my days writing reports and emails with perfect punctuation - i just want to chill a little in my personal life

#authenticity #cool #meta